Chapter 6 : Rain of Tears

When I was in Kindergarden,
I was always being beaten up by my mom, and I was always crying.. Hiding under the table, keeping away the rotans away from her, how I wish I can break it.. The tears of my past..

When I was in Primary School,
I stand the pain of being beaten up by my mom, the tears, I "kek kin", turns into urea, and I have to cry in the toilet everytime.. The tears of my past...

When I started to be emotional,
I didnt cry, but, I always trying to end my life with no reason, everytime it rains, I just told myself that "I love walking in the rain, coz no one's sees me crying", but I hated the rain.. It really makes me think of something that didnt make me happy.. Tears drops everytime without a single reason..

When I stopped being Emo, and turned 14,
I realised that, crying is for babies, I can talk, I can get everything with my own bare hands without any help from anyone, I dont have to cry for some stupid damn old thing! Tears can only be shedded with joy, happiness, if you lose someone, dont cry, be happy, coz you're giving him/her/it freedom, if anyone passed away, dont cry, be strong, coz they're resting in peace, they'll always be by your side. Raining is the best season in Malaysia, we can all be DiGi men, marching in formation, without carrying some damn heavy bass drums walking around as DiGi men...

When it rains, it's God, he's crying with happiness, he's pouring down he's blessing to all of us, dont get angry if you forgot to bring your umbrella, let the rain pour on you, you'll feel relax after having a non-shampoo bath.. haha..

Dont feel sad because you're rejected or you're not accepted, there are millions and millions of fishes in the ocean (unless you pollute it!) You can just fish one fishy out and named it Foofie, and love it like being aimed by the love angel..

Live your life, cherish every moment you have it with your love ones, remember the stupid tears you shed without any reasons.. YOU'RE STRONG!! TEARS ARE NOT A FACTOR TO RUIN YOUR WHOLE LIFE!! EVERY SINGLE MISTAKE, LEADS TO A MISERABLE ENDING, THINK OF OTHER PEOPLE!!

Whatever I'm saying, I know, it's not related, but it just came out of my mind, so dont blame my mind, LOVE it, or just HATE it!

Chapter 5 : Proofed!

You know la, monday got geografi, so, ofcoz got about Ng Swee Kian one!! when she came in, I padam the papan hitam, then she look at me again, but who cares! tengok saje! then she wrote A-13, B-25, C-7, what?? then she talk crap again.. wasting time saje.. then she suddenly stop saying that she dont wanna waste time, start checking answers for geografi, one question at a time, I was thinking, how can you discuss with us in only 35 minutes and it's 60 questions?? Crazy ar!! You know lo, Crystal started screaming the answers, I started banging the table, a lot of people started groaning, haha.. Bernice started shaking her table with a drawer(she finally had a table with a drawer).. Then, she started writting down the answers on the blackboard, ooo.. maybe she knows that she didnt have enough time to continue talking crap anymore.. so, this was my first time, 48 out of 60 questions!! AN A!!! YIPPEE!! so, I was one of the 13s, True, Im here to deliver bad luck, remember?? TeeHee!! I told Bernice: remembered she said all of us will fail geografi coz none of us are listening to her when she's teaching? but she said she dont know coz she didnt listen, swt.. anyway, what I really wanna say is, EVERYONE PASSED YOUR GEOGRAFI!! 13 PEOPLE GET A! 25 GET B, AND ONLY 7 GET C!! WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM US??WE PROOF TO YOU THAT EVEN WITHOUT LISTENING TO YOUR CRAPS, WE CAN SCORE WITH FLYING COLOURS!! owh, I proofed that I can score As by just scolding NG SWEE KIAN!! CAN GO BAND PRACTICES ALREADY!!

This exam, I scored quite good marks, better than last year except chinese.. lol.. improved a lot.. I guess.. very happy thats all.. haha... someone smsed me just now, asking me that if the someone he likes got any feelings toward the guy whos chasing her too.. I was like, whoa, how should I noe, but, ofcoz I told him something.. LOL.. hopes he can get to her first.. lalala!!

Chapter 4 : Thinking of You

Cause when Im alone, Im thinking of you... Cant stop thinking of you... When can I see you again?? You were the one who spent the day with me everytime.. I cant live a day without you.. I need your hug during the cold weather, the warmness around me, the pumping of blood in you.. I wish I can own you, but, it's over.. Those memories, all I can do is just think of you.

Hahahaha!!! THAT IS JUST TO SUIT THE TITLE! PLEASE DONT MISUNDERSTAND.. Finished my Sejarah projek, started blogging, listened to the song thinking of you, decided to blog about it.. haha.. so, band camp had come an end yesterday, ate the most of my life last night, was happy that Kester didnt put my crazy video last night, but I sang out loudly last night!! haha.. washed plates.. when home, do projek.. owh, TO SOMEONE: GOOD LUCK IN EXPRESSING YOUR LOVE TOWARD SOMEONE YOU REALLY LIKE!!

Really hope band camp kept going on and on and on! Have to go back school tomorrow, and have to see NG SWEE KIAN again.. T_T Really hate to see her stupid face.. anyway, bought 2hamsters just now, my old one died, for no reason, but hope it rest in peace.. named them "me me lok lok" haha.. lazy take pics of them.. haha..

haha, me strong le.. haha!!

like this pic, cindy and melia so cool, dont know what's salleh doing

Chapter 3 : Day One

Since the day we met, I cant stop dreaming about you, you kept coming into my dream, how tight we hold each other, only two days had passed, and our relationship became so close, oh!! Whatever!! I JUST GOT MY NEW DRUMSTICKS!! YEAH!! PRO MARK SYSTEM BLUE!! haha, I slept with it last night, whoa.. finally got my own drumsticks!! hahaha!!! BTW, dont think to theother side, Im talking about my drumsticks.. TQ!!

My pro mark System Blue Stick!!

RM45 for the stick and RM5 for the tape.

Phew wit!! haha..

Made in USA le!!

Chapter 2 : You're Save!!

Adam Lambert from American Idol

GUESS WHAT??!! He finish reading twilight, new moon, eclipse and breaking dawn!! Hope he won or something, 2nd Aerosmith.. haha.. Whatever!! GO ADAM!!

Chapter 1 : Beginning of a new History

hey!! huh? what? want me to say more about NG SWEE KIAN!!!??? Hahaha, Babi dia, dont peduli dia, Bluek!! Diam la NG SWEE KIAN!! ok, hahaha.. Stop!!! Shhhhhh......

well, been busy with band practise.. didnt rain.. did shine brightly.. not really windy... makes me remember the quote "the sun is so big, the wind is so small" hmm.. today CG and Drumline relax.. dont know what they're doing, feel like joining, but mom dont allow, thought of doing Sejarah project, so ya, of course do la!! Go Muzium Sarawak, take pictures, go take stupid permission to "fall in" the muzium (oops, addicted to it liaw) then take pictures, especially the babi, imagined ng swee kian as the babi.. haha!! I saw a katak, fake one of course, if you really go notice it la.. meet lots of friends, they also come take pictures, then go see the ikan-ikans, the buaya-buayas, then go home, started doing project.. then ended up blogging.. whoohoo!! Mom dont know what's blogging, im typing, so it's, doing project la.. sheez.. watched YouTube.. haiz.. I HATE HOLIDAYS!! I WANT BAND WHOLE DAY!! haha..

I know la, I very perasan la, I didnt perm my hair or anything. TQ

Muzium Sarawak yang bersejarah.. whatever

Eeee.. My cat's saliva!!

Katak di bawah tempurung.. nono.. Katak di dalam kotak kaca.. ee.. hate frogs!!

Apa sajalah!! ahaha.. Ciao!!

Volume 100: Never Have Enough Of Ng Swee Kian

Band Camp start liaw loo... well, the good thing about this camp is, that I DONT HAVE TO SEE THE SIAO NANG, NG SWEE KIAN!!! owh ya, speaking about NG SWEE KIAN! saw her dont know when la, take bouquet of flowers(walao, bouquet owh) into bilik guru, wah, you didnt see her face ar, "chio kao kuak kuak" ar.. KANASAI!! you smile so wide for what?? want eat people.. then, "suae bei suae", she come in for Chinese, I was thinking, your "ang ang ei huei le?" you smile too wide eat tiao kee hia? Then, guess what.. she SMILED AT ME!! SWT LA YOU!! SMILE AT ME FOR WHAT? THINK I'LL FORGIVE YOU LIKE THIS, IF YOU THOUGHT I WILL FORGIVE YOU, YOU GOT IT WWWWRRRRROOOONNNGGG!!! (yep, beyounce punya If I Were A Boy) 4pm liaw, still dont want give paper, give malay nia, what you babi ar?? think I cant listen to you ar?? what the hell la.. sheez.. you know chinese paper so damn hard?? still late give people paper, if be song us, just give us paper la, then chaou la!! stay here for what?? GILA!! BABI!! KANASAI!! GO DIAO PIAK LA!!

BABI BUDAK TU!!

YOU BABI KA?? Teacher say go take stuff, ok, go take.. go cari her.. she's not in her office.. fine.. keluar, saw you, just wanna tell you that teacher's not in the office.. mana tau you say.. SHE'S AT 3A!! WHAO!! BABI KAU! TELL ME PROPERLY LA!! MANA ME TAU SHE AT 3A AR?? Ok, maybe the chinese in my class treat you not very good, but excuse mua!! did I ever say something that make you so hate me?? EXCUSE ME MISS!! ok, fine.. after this, I wouldnt treat you as nice as before anymore.. not me punya style.. FINE!! BABI!! ASUK BETTER THAN YOU!! BABI!! HMPH!!!

pissed!!

To a RETARDED and CRAZY TEACHER! NG SWEE KIAN!!
Who you think you are har? You think you're a teacher then you can simply buat this buat that isit? You think you're a teacher then everything you do is correct har? FUCK OFF! STUPID TEACHER!! You pass me the paper, of course I pikul the tanggungjawab go pass the stupid fucking paper to her la! She dont have is her fault right? She come to me, let me see what she dont have, YOU FUCKING TEACHER AR! SAY I DIDNT GIVE HER THE STUPID FUCKING PAPER? SHE DONT HAVE THE PREVIOUS ONE LA! YOU BLAME ME AR?? YOU POINT AT ME AR? YOU HENG ME AR? YOU XIONG ME AR?? LOOK AT ME WITH YOUR BULGING EYES? YOU THINK I TAKUT YOU AR? I ASK GOD USE AYAM CAKAR YOUR MATA AR! YOU THINK YOU GOT LASER EYES AR? YOU NOT SUPERMAN AR! YOU'RE SUPER DUPA STUPID TEACHER AR! YOU DONT CARI THE STUPID PAPER, YOU BLAME ORANG, ORANG ALSO ORANG OK? ORANG BUKAN ANJING AR! I BET A MILLION THOUSAND IF YOU DONT SAYANG YOUR STUPID ASUK AR!!
Then? Go open your stupid book.. WHOA!! GOT SHIT HIA?? THE STUPID FUCKING PAPERS ARE IN YOUR STUPID BOOK!!! YOU TAK CARI, YOU BLAME ORANG, BULLSHIT AR!! FUCK OFF LA!! I ask you, you salah, you still smile at people ar?? BLUEK AR!! SHE SMILE LIKE NOTHING HAPPEN AR!! MUKA MACAM KEK SAI LIKE THAT!! OR YOU KEK YOUR FOETUS KELUAR KE DUNIA NI?? HAR??!! YOU PERIOD ISIT? TODAY 2ND OF MARCH LIAW LOR! OR YOU MENOPAUSE LIAW?? OR PREGNANT?? TOO LONG DIDNT FUCK YOUR HUSBAND HIA? OR BUAT TOO MANY TIMES, TERLALU STRESS, THEN LEPAS GARAM ON US?? WE ALSO HUMAN AR!! WE ARE NOT ASUK OR JANIK OK!!?? Ever heard before or not, last time we say, DONT STUDY, THROW RUBBISH, now, we say, DONT STUDY, GO BECOME TEACHER!! No job liaw isit?? YOU SO GOOD IN BLAMING, JADI LAWYER LA!! WHY STAY IN GREEN ROAD?? WHY STILL ONE TEACH?? GILA BABI! I THINK BABI NOT AS GILA AS YOU AR!! SIAW NANG AR!! ONLY KNOW HOW TO HENG AND XIONG ME NIA, EYE CONTACT ISIT?? NO NEED YOUR EYE CONTACT, I GOT SPECS, CAN REFLECT YOUR CONTACT!! OR YOU NEVER SEE SOMEONE LIKE ME BEFORE?? NEVER SEE PEOPLE SKIN TON SO PERFECT ISIT?? NEVER SEE WHAT TYPE OF COLOUR MY HAIR IS HIA?? OR GOT SAI ON MY FACE? NO LE, GOT PIMPLE LA!! WEAR SPECS AGAIN AR, WHERE YOU LETAK YOUR MATA?? IN YOUR KOCEK ISIT?? OR YOUR VAGINA?? YOUR VAGINA IS FOR YOUR HUSBAND PUNYA PENIS!! NOT YOUR MATA!! GILA!! NEXT TIME YOU HENG OR XIONG ME!! YOU DIE I TELL YOU!!
YOU TELL PEOPLE TO STICK ALL THE PAPERS YOU GIVE, PEOPLE OF COURSE STICK RIGHT?? YOU GO CHECK ANSWER, WHO LISTEN TO YOU HAR?? MOTHERFUCKER AR!! THEN YOU SAY WHAT PMR THING, SCORE WHAT 8B'S, E'S.. SCORE YOUR COCK AR!! IF PEOPLE SCORE A FOR GEOGRAFI, ALSO DONT HAVE TO THANK YOU AR.. YOU GEOGRAFI NOT RATA AT ALL.. WANT TEACH WHAT HAR??
APOLOGIZE TO ME?? EVERYONE LIVE IN JUPITER I ALSO DONT FORGIVE YOU AR.. FUCK YOU AR!! GO DIE LA!!