Time is running out! Argh! Cindy sms-ed me last night about sectional stuffs.. I dont wanna talk about it.. I just wanna tell you that, DRUMLINE WEAK LIKE SHIT becoz of me.. Who ask me go tuition here and there.. Who ask me to be in Form 3 this year? Who ask me to promise my mom to get 8A's in PMR... Who ask me to have a stupid high ambition? I dont wanna blame the whole drumline... IM BLAMMING MYSELF COZ IM THE SECTION LEADER, AND I CANT EVEN GO FOR SECTIONALS? WHAT THE FUCK AM I THINKING OF? FEELING GUILTY ISNT A WAY TO HIDE IT UP.. THIS LIFE SUCKS.. FUCK OFF!!
One month and 16 hrs 12 minutes to my b'day.. (sry, my maths sucks) And Im still this childish? Why cant I grow up now? Why cant I plan my time myself? Why must I always listen to my mom? Why must I always be the one doing all this stuff.. Even if it's not becoz of me, I still have to feel guilty? WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Competition is less than one month and 16 hrs 12 minutes, school exam is less than one month and 16 hrs 12 minutes, WHAT TO DO? DIE LA!!! I TOLD YOU I CANT BE SECTION LEADER.. I SURE DIE IN LESS THAN 2 MONTHS.. WELL, 1 DAY IN BAND ALREADY KILLED ME!!
If people salah, I scold them, then? I get emo and started doing stuff without following people, I jz wanna do my own stuff, then when Im angry, I dont check line, and if I dont check line, I kena marah, kena marah makes me angrier.. I HATE IT!! MY STUPID BAD TEMPERED SKILL!! DAMN IT!!
YOU KNOW HOW STRESS AM I RIGHT NOW? LATER GOT PIANO EXAM, I CANT ATTAIN BAND PRAC AGAIN, AFTER PIANO EXAM? PMR.. THEN? WHAT'S GONNA BE NEXT? I DONT KNOW WHAT MY MOM WILL SUGGEST FOR ME TO TAKE UP DURING MY FREE WEEKS..
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